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This is how I function — I make friends, I do something interesting, then I tell my friends about that. Then I give up on the project soon (by giving up, I mean simply stop working on it, rather than giving up because of something). Then I feel shitty about how my friends would think I do not see to the end the projects I really care about. Then I feel more shitty about the possible consequences of this — how they would have trouble trusting me anymore, because I give up the things that I care about. In the fear of this possible consequence I stop talking to them with the obvious resolution that —

Until I’m able to complete that project / complete making that idea, I will not (can’t) talk to them.

Months, even years pass. That’s why I have so less friends. I think?